I am sure the answer is yes! come on! we all have wish to do something different, no matter if you have a fulfilling career, then you dream with having more time, if you are in shape you want to do something else. Now here is the difference between the minority that dream and go after it, and the rest of the people, to whom I would refer as “Us”.
This year is about to end, and the season for new goals is started. Things like loosing weight, that usually starts right after the holidays, when most of “Us” will gain more weight because there is this part of us that feels entitled to eat everything that you’ve struggle during the year to resist, and on top of that, since it is something that just happens once a year we just let go of any restrain and eat until we hate our selves! I already did this on Thanksgiving, I really enjoyed the food, but that just added to the weight I was already struggling to loose.
Now I am at a different cross road in my life. I am soon to become an empty nester, and if you’ve read about me, you should know that I am a “teen Mom”. I had My son when I was 17, so as someone so clearly pointed out, we’ve grown up together. I know letting your kids go, is difficult, but letting go of everything you’ve ever known is terrifying.
I’ve always wanted to be a full time writer, but I had other responsibilities, like feeding the kid and dressing him and making sure that he has a roof… You know, things like that. I have been lucky! very lucky, that no matter how difficult things were, there was always a miracle around the corner waiting for us. But what about now? He is off to start his adult life, and sure he will still need help, but won’t need me to drive him around (we just have my car), or thinking of every daily meal (3 times a day, at least).
I am in a moment that I am fighting my inner demons, my fears, my insecurities. I have a book that I’ve been holding on for a while, I’ve been working on it for years, but I can’t bring my self to finish it, and even less, to publish it.
So here I am, in a point of my life that I can finally go after my dream, no more self impose excuses and I don’t know what to do.
It’s amazing how we can limit ourselves and find a perfect excuse each and every time, how it is easier to just blame it on the moment, on lack of resources, on there is always a tomorrow.
Would you be ok just not going for what you want most, for that dream, that has probably hunt you since you were little?
I know I wouldn’t, I would not be able to forgive me, to grew old, and haven’t even try. But here I am, finding other things that have to be done before, I mean, the house isn’t going to clean by it self, or clothes, gosh! those really need my attention, to put them in the washer, then dryer and off course folding, and by the time all that is done, I will be tired, is time for dinner, plan my day tomorrow and hope that I might make it back to my book.
I have the opportunity to go after my dream, and now what?